Hope that I'm wrong

I have a feeling that something bad is about to happen. I have no confidence at all in this relationship. He can't trust himself 100 % and how would I live with this? Paranoid all the way? I feel that I can't carry on this way. It is going nowhere. I am lying to myself knowing that this relationship is not going to work. Guess it is the selfishness in me that results to this.

I know what is happening. I may not tell him everything but I know there is something he is hiding from me. I wish he could be at least a little more understanding. He can't seem to detect my feelings at all. Sometimes when I'm feeling unhappy, I have to resort to my friends. ( and not him, my so called boyfriend)

I just know that this will hurt me if I carry on. This is so unfair. I'm only the medicine to his broken heart...

The Malacca Guy

It has been almost a year since we last spoken to each other. He just disappear on our last day of college. I called him countless times and he finally pick up my call after the God knows hundred time. He told me he was charging his phone but it is obvious that he is avoiding me at that time.

We lost contact after that phone call. He did not inform me about his whereabouts as we have promised to meet at a place we already decided. He did not turn up. I believe he did not contact my friends too as they would desperately want to know what had happened to him. Thank God, he finally replied my email I sent him months ago. He was actually working in Australia. I am meeting him some time this week or next. I am excited, after a year since we last met.

The last meeting was at my friend's condominium . It was a farewell party and my Vietnamese friends cooked for us.

Before the party starts. It was Haily and Ruby in this picture. Yummy....Vietnam Popiah...











With my Vietnamese friends; Jolie, ViVi, Haily and Ruby. Look at those delicious food on the table!!!!











Charlene and her Vietnam popiah in the making..

Step 1: Moisten the Popiah wrap with some water.












Step 2: Place some vegetables on the center of your popiah wrap.













Step 3: Place some fish meat, sliced pork and taugeh.













Step 4: Finally, wrap it and TADA!!!! My vietnam popiah which I am craving for now......







One big happy family. Victor and Ian in the picture... " YUM SENG!!!!!"

Being with him...

First picture taken with him in the library..


Never have I imagined that I would meet this guy. Really appreciates every moment spent with him.


Another picture with him before he leaves to continue his studies in Perak.

Turning point of my life...

This year marks a turning point in my love life. I wonder if this is the better decision made compared to what has my friends been telling me. I remember coming to INTI Subang with a culture shock. Spending 3 years in Taylor’s, I have been used to being a “Taylorian”. Well, for those who had studied in Taylor’s would understand what I’m trying to tell here. I didn’t have many friends when I first came here. Some even shocked to hear my age; therefore there is a gap between myself and the students here in INTI.

That does not bother me much though. Not until I experienced the lowest point of my life by breaking up with my ex-boyfriend of 2 and a half years. We have known each other when we were 11. However, we broke up due to some silly reasons. It was such a hard time for me for as I was left alone to deal with all these. I attempted suicide which is the worst thing to do. I made my friends and family worried of me for nothing. I remember my god father telling me this; “Some bad things that happened to you may not be as bad as you think it is. When God closes a door, for He will open another better one for you”.

True enough, I feel he was right. I have been quite close to this guy. He was there for me when I needed help. It is surprising to know that we are dating now. He is a nice guy. He is friendly and helpful. If it is not because of my desperation for help at that time, I wouldn’t have called him for help. (LUCKY ME!!!)

I will appreciate everything I have now. I thank God for him. He lifted me up from ground and taught me that life is not just about sadness. WE should live our lives with fullness!!